Relatable Wigs

Funny how I used to feel alone my whole time studying in school, just because I thought I wasn't making the most out of it, spending nights with books instead of friends and whatever. I used to think being a nerd - a geek or whatever people want to call it - was kind of okay since in the movies and documentary biographies on TV, we always get the happy endings later in life. I used to believe in labels, that it matters how others see me. I wanted to be pure. I wanted to be someone high up in the sky looking down on tall buildings, and watch as passers-by go about their life below. I spent a huge chunk of my life wondering lots of things. It's weird that this is where I end up - not very far from where I've been actually.

Now I go to college and while I did try making the most out of life, it felt empty. I felt motionless, and still. I am an entirely different person now. Sure I'm still nerdy as I've always been, but its strange because there are people I've met along the way. Some introduced themselves as the standard friends - the people who you frequency come in contact with but pretty much that's about it. There were special ones though who were just as crazy, as nerdy, and as empty as I was. We were very different from each other but there was this odd familiarity we had among ourselves. It was often mistaken as elitism or being out of the loop, but at the of the day it simply is just who we are. This is what we've become. All those pop culture references and being alone in the dark for too long, this is what it has made us. Feeling more during the finale of Breaking Bad than one of my closest's friends breakup does not make me a bad friend. Caring more about fictional characters than the lives of real people doesn't mean I'm delusional; it's just a show of hands on what I want humanity to be. It's my idea of what it means to be human. These characters aren't created out of thin air. They have depth, tailor-made by the writers with love and out of their own souls. Just because they are not human doesn't mean they are not human.

I'm fairly sure this would again come off as being elitist or being spiteful of reality, but it isn't. People are from different cultures. This is just me trying to put into words who I am as a person. This is my culture. It isn't better nor is it worse. It's just who I am, and sometimes people don't recognize how lonely it is to be in a culture like this but at the same time it's more than rewarding to find people in the same vein - people who'd love more than they can give and people who are selfish, people who are childish and always afraid. Emotions are the most polarizing things in the world. And the hardest to describe. For now I'm happy having people I could share the loneliness with. For now I'm fine with having hope in the form of these relatable wigs.

Born Without Bones - Say Hello

Release Date: November 16, 2010 | Record Label: Independent

There is always this forty minute gap of travelling I encounter most days. Trips like these I usually end up wondering about the life I'm living and the type of life I want to be in. Trips like these deserve a good soundtrack - one that shares the same anxiety and frustration I've been having. Most people probably have them too, and if there is one friend I would want to recommend to go along with the ride, it would be Born Without Bones' debut record Say Hello.